Day 2

Spent some quality time with some old friends today. Haven't just sat down and laughed with them in way too long. Went out for Fro Yo with a few dear hearts. GREAT afternoon. My bestie is making me crazy, but it's not something that I'm going to make an issue out of. I love her too much. My 2 favs will be gone way too soon. Makes me sad. It feels like I will be the last single girl... all of my friends are married. Great.

doing well on the food intake. neglecting breakfast... need to get back on that train.

Day 5... Well, more like Day 1.

Back on the wagon.

I feel like I've spent the last week and a half running along behind the proverbial wagon, trying to jump back on! Yesterday, I walked again - for the first time in a WEEK! Sheesh.... Walked today too. My feet hurt. I realized over the weekend that I my chacos seem to be wearing out. I've done an experiment. I wore tennis shoes all weekemd, then wore my chacos all day yesterday. Mis-Take. I need some new ones. Pronto. Part of me says that I should realistically wait until the spring to buy a new pair, but I know myself. I wear my chacos well into cold weather. I think tomorrow will be new chaco day.

Tomorrow is also weigh-in... with the week I just came through, we'll just see how it goes.

Day 5

my back hurts :( I had a long night of fitful sleep. I had way, WAY too much stuff on my mind last night. Teaching job, money for next summer, boy stuff, more boy stuff. After tossing for 2 hours, I finally got out of bed, got on my knees and said a prayer that God please take all of my insecurities away. I will wait for what he has planned for me. If I need to change, then change me. I someone else needs to change, I am willing to wait. I want to stop worrying about it all... Even now though, I find my chest getting tight just thinking about it all.

Yuck.

I'm going for a walk.

on the bright side, I'm down 2 more pounds. and I bought smaller clothes yesterday!!

Day 2

went to my old job today to say hello. saw one of my fav people there and one of the first things she said to me was: "have you lost weight? you look good!"

epic. win.

walked this a.m. then had an epiphany about portion control at lunch. I managed to put a normal-person-sized portion on my plate and was completely satisfied!

loving this new work schedule. able to plan my weeks easily.

meant to grocery shop today for breakfast options... need to do that tomorrow.

Day 1

Well, the weekend wasn't much of a success... time to begin a new week.

I had a moment that I haven't seen the likes of in over a year. Friday afternoon, while planning to go out with some friends later that night, I went shopping for a new top to wear. I found a jacket in a size that I haven't been in in over a year. It. Fit. I haven't gone out feeling like I look that nice in a L.O.N.G. time. I looked damn good, in fact.

Still debating on the new work schedule. I've found that I am not walking on work days. I want to focus on me for a while. I have to. Since I have such freedom in my schedule, I think I'll experiment with it over the next week of two and see how the walking schedule goes...

In other news, I think that I've gotten my body to the point where I can no longer tolerate nasty, yummy food. I ate a pasta dish last night that had a creamy sauce and it made me sick. While I am a little upset that I apparently can no longer eat this particular dish, I am ecstatic that my stomach has learned to distinguish the good from the bad/ugly. If only my brain would catch up!

Also, I have become super sensitive to caffeinated beverages. I drank one today and have felt for the last few hours like I was about to start bouncing around the room... back to water. Immediately.

Day 4

Wednesday... I haven't posted this week!

Sunday - was sick. didn't walk for fear of said sickness.

Monday. Walked and did well.

Tuesday. Didn't walk :( started a part-time job and had to be up and at 'em waaaayyy to early to consider walking.

And we're at today! Walked and I've done pretty well. Lunch was a turkey sammich and a little pasta salad.

I've discovered a new love. Fruit2O. Zero calories and plenty of electrolytes! Couldn't find it at Wally World, so I got some Crystal Light Pure Fitness instead. 30 calories per serving. not bad at all, but I wish I could have found the other!

Saturday - CHEAT DAY!

So I'm going to talk through a few things here simply because I feel like I get my thoughts out better on paper (albeit the digital kind in this case).

What is so appealing about feeling "full". I eat a huge meal - quickly - and stop only when I feel like I can't move. It's harder to breathe because my stomach is so full. Why is this something that I do to myself on purpose?

Every article that I have looked at has pointed me toward Binge Eating Disorder. 

Yes, I already knew this. Eating in secret. Gorging myself until I felt like I would be sick. And then feeling super guilty after eating...

My name is TreyBo and I'm a Binge Eater.

My new project: learning to eat S.L.O.W.E.R.

I was eating leftover pizza from last night for lunch today and realized that I'd eaten 3 pieces in about 5 minutes. Ridiculous. Completely ridiculous. This stops now.

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Now that I have THAT out of my system... Today is cheat day. And I feel guilty for it. I'd go walk, but it's raining :( I think I'll lift some weights or maybe do some yoga... once my rather large lunch settles.

Day 6

Forgot to write yesterday... Did well all day. Forgot breakfast though. Oops.

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Today

Walked. Of course.

Forgot breakfast. Remembered at mile 0.5.

Lunch: chicken sammich

Snack: C&C

Dinner: Homemade pizza.

dessert... cinnamon apple bread pudding.

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I am at 266.5 today. I have made a rule: I will never again see 270. Ever. When I get into the 250s I will promise never to see 260 again, and so forth. See where this is going? It's a good plan, if you ask me.

Day 4

Realized that I hadn't eaten breakfast when I was at about 0.5 miles...

Walked (obviously)

Lunch: chicken wrap

snack: wasn't at home for snack, but ate a little bit of cheese when I got home

Dinner: 3 chicken tacos on corn tortillas

Dessert... yes, I had dessert: cupcake and ice cream.I couldn't resist.

Day 2

Well, after my shame last night. Today is going ok.

Ate small breakfast of cheese and apple juice (no HFCS or sugar added)

Walked. BEAUTIFUL day!

Lunch - Chicken sammich.

Snack will be cheese/crackers

Dinner: TBA. I probably should go to the store.

Day 1 - pm

I did this as a separate post because I don't want it to be related to my success this a.m.

I won't say that I "fell off the wagon", but I have to admit to my shame. It's more like the wagon hit an unexpected bump and I wasn't wearing my seatbelt. Now I've bitten my tongue and am trying to stop thinking about the pain...

At about noon today, it started. I felt like a heroin addict or something. Like the drug was just getting out of my system and the withdrawal was setting in. I needed to eat. To feel ridiculously full to the point that I was uncomfortable. This hasn't happened to me at all in the last few weeks (since I started this project). I used to experience this so often that it felt normal. Meals were a time to make myself uncomfortable. "Too much of a good thing", if you will. It was my way of life. Which easily explains my weight of 276 pounds. Eating disorder? Nah. Just a nasty, nasty habit.

Today, it hit me. I literally sat tapping my foot and waiting for the feeling to pass. I made it a few hours and then had my cheese-n-crackers snack. That helped, but the feeling wasn't gone. I drank a few glasses of water. No change. Then finally, after I've already eaten an early (and healthy) dinner, my sister announces that she's going to Wendy's.

Get your purse. Where are my shoes? Wait for me. I'm coming with you.

Yes, I ate dinner twice. Something that I haven't done in MONTHS.

Now, I'm so full that I'm uncomfortable. I'm gassy. And I probably won't sleep because I also had a caffeinated drink. Lovely.

I want to crawl into a hole. But I won't. I read something the other day that is keeping me from giving up. I read an article about "stopping the binge-eating habit". It said that every day cannot be perfect and, if I have a bad day, I have to put it behind me and do better tomorrow. Such an easy concept, but one that I wouldn't have been able to handle just a few short weeks ago.

This is why I am starting over counting each week. I can start over every week and try again... or "begin again" as my BFF put it :)

Day 1

And so a new week begins...

Breakfast - Vanilla yogurt with granola. I remembered why I don't usually eat yogurt. Too tangy. I'll have to try again with the breakfast ideas.

Walked. It has been a beautiful day! I'll probably end up on the hammock before the day is out.

Lunch: Deli-style chicken breast sandwich with pepperjack cheese. Little bit of mayo and a little (no HFCS) ketchup.

Snack will be my dear friends: wheat thins and cheese

Dinner: will be leftover pasta from Friday night.

Day 6 - Cause for Celebration!

The following absolutely must be in all capital letters: I HAVE LOST 10 POUNDS!

I haven't seen 266 in over a year. I looked down at the scale and said, "WHAT?" I actually stepped off and then stepped back on just to be sure.

I have to admit, I didn't eat breakfast this morning. 1) I forgot to boil eggs last night and 2) I couldn't eat another egg. I'm going to the grocery store today, so I'll do some research before hand to decide what I'm going to be looking for for breakfast.

Lunch: I'm going to eat a sandwich today. I'm not tired of smoothies by any means, but I'm in the mood for something different.

Snack will be my dear friends, wheat thins and laughing cow cheese.

Dinner: TBA

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I walked this morning and saw what I have been looking for every time I go - a snake! Now, having grown up in the back woods of B.F.E., I was pretty sure that it was a "harmless" garter snake, but since I couldn't be sure, I gave it a wide birth. Did I mention that it was only about 8 inches long? Yeah. It was tiny. But still.... As far as I was concerned, it was a deathly poisonous copper-headed water rattler.

Day 5

Breakfast - 2 hard boiled egg whites. I'm starting to get tired of the eggs... I had to tell myself, "it's just fuel. I need fuel to start my day." I may experiment with other breakfasts though.

*walked

Lunch: Smoothie, per usual.

Snack: wheat thins and laughing cow cheese

Dinner: will be the rest of the leftover jambalaya.

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The job looks closer and closer every day. I need to figure out a routine for lunches and snacks during the day...

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Today I saw a video that my friend made of me the other day (they were playing with my phone and I didn't know I was being video taped) -- 1) motivation, motivation, motivation. and 2) I think I may go to the tanning bed a few times. I am pasty pale - a result of spending the last 2 summers indoors... classes and work, work and classes. I don't want to look like I've been baking in the sun, but I do believe I look thinner with a tan :)

Day 4

Didn't post yesterday. Did walk. Didn't succumb to temptations. All-in-all a good day.

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TODAY

Didn't walk this morning, which felt pretty strange. I had a meeting early this morning and couldn't fathom walking before the sun was completely up. DID, however, eat breakfast. Go me.

 Lunch today wasn't a smoothie, but wasn't too bad. Salad and a baked potato (no butter on the potato, just sour cream).

Snack - 10 wheat thins and 2 wedges of laughing cow cheese.

Was talking to some friends today about my motivating factor - looking forward to a yummy baking project on Saturday. This weekend will bring Martha Stewart's Vanilla cupcake vanilla bean buttercream recipes. I went in search of actual vanilla beans yesterday and found them!

Dinner tonight will be baked pork chops and salad.

Walking will recommence tomorrow!


And... did I mention that we're at 6 pounds lost!

Day 2

Slept in. Have to stop that crap.Didn't eat breakfast as a result. DID, however, walk 2 miles. In. The. Rain.

Lovely.

Lunch: Sandwich - deli chicken and pepperjack cheese on whole wheat bread. 1/2 tbsp olive oil mayo, and just a smidge of hot sauce.

Dinner will be leftover Jambalaya.

Oh! And did I mention that I've lost 4 pounds??

Bitchin'.


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Snack - 10 Wheat Thins (original) @ 8 calories each, 2 wedges of laughing cow swiss cheese (@ 35 cal each).

In the wheat thin box, there was a sample of Crystal Light Pure Fitness. It is sweetened with "Stivia Plant" sweeteners and contains not preservatives or artificial ingredients. Also, it contains electrolytes! @ 15 calories per serving (which is only 1/2 a packet - let's face it, I'd use the whole thing without thinking), I'm going to give this a try tomorrow.


*PM*

I ate a piece of cake... My sister will not let me throw it out because she and her hubs are still eating it. I will do extra well tomorrow to make up for it.

Day 1

So I've decided to start over on my numbering each week. After my free-for-all cheat day yesterday, I feel like I'm starting over. I found myself shopping in the fridge earlier. I stopped myself and got a glass of water instead. Go me. But yes, the count starts over today.

Breakfast - I forgot to boil eggs last night, which means that I didn't eat breakfast at all. Oops.

Walked 2 miles again. Had company this time. My sister joined me. It went by a lot faster.

Early Lunch: Smoothie + protein. Sweetened with honey (real honey this time).

Ate a sandwich ~3:00. Not eating breakfast caught up to me.

Dinner: the sister wants me to make Jambalaya... hopefully I can control myself.

*PM*

I really want another piece of Italian cream cake... I can eat a small piece and not go crazy. Then the rest of the cake is going to go away.

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Bought new shoes yesterday. Highly recommend: Reebok Flexride.

Saturday - CHEAT DAY!

So today is Saturday - my self-proclaimed "cheat day". Today, I slept in. I did not walk today. And I am currently baking an Italian Cream cake that I have been lusting over all week. I'm not going to do the "sugary soda" thing on my cheat day because I'd rather not get a caffeine headache tomorrow.

I'm not going to list breakfast, lunch, and dinner because, as far as I'm concerned, calories don't count on cheat day.

*LATER*

Ok, so my cake was uber rich. I could barely finish one piece. AND, in a fun twist - it made me sick! Who knew that only 5 days of no white sugar would lead to 1 piece of cake giving me diarrhea. Fun stuff.

In other news, I bought a new pair of running shoes today... which I intend to wear for WALKING for now. I may work up to running, but not yet.

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I just finished reading Elizabeth Gilbert's 'Eat, Pray, Love'. I saw the movie a few weeks ago and downloaded a sample of it with iBooks on my iPhone. After just a few pages, I was hooked. It's a-mazing. I highly recommend it.

Day 5

Didn't eat breakfast until after walk this a.m. - 3 hard boiled egg whites. No salt or pepper today. Didn't really miss it.

Did better at swinging/elevating my arms during my walk today. Fingers were still a little swollen, but not as bad as yesterday. I still wonder if it has anything to do with fisting my iPod while I walk. I'm going to look into getting an arm strap, regardless.

Need. New. Shoes. As soon as possible.

Looking forward to my "cheat" day tomorrow. I've decided to give myself 1 day a week where I can splurge. Don't get me wrong. I'm not going to go crazy, but I DO plan to make a fabulous Italian Cream Cake that I've been lusting over for the last few days. Seriously, I've been looking at pictures of it in anticipation. Food porn. Hey, I've been able to resist the bowl of candy upstairs all weak because I know something delicious is coming tomorrow.

I really need to stop watching Food Network... Giada is making me hungry. Time to get another glass of water. This has been my way to stave off cravings for snacks. Good ol' H2O.

Lunch: Triple Berry smoothie with Curves protein powder.

I didn't add milk because we're out (I didn't miss it at all). I didn't add honey today because I realized that the honey in the cabinet is not actual honey, but instead "Honey Flavored Syrup". First ingredient - high fructose corn syrup. Great. My sister is so cheap when it comes to groceries. Instead of honey, we end up with "Honey flavored syrup" and instead of butter, we end up with "vegetable oil spread". gross. I'm going to just have to get my own fridge for real food...

*LATER*

I've just had a breakthrough... I got mad and DIDN'T EAT! I'm pretty proud of myself.

Dinner: While the roommates are ordering pizza, I will be having leftover spaghetti from night before last.

Oh, and I got a few workout tops... very exciting.

Day 4

Holy crap, my feet hurt. Where's the Ibuprofen?

Ok, I had to get that out. Moving on...

Breakfast: 2 egg whites (hard boiled) with salt and pepper

Went for another 2 mile walk. My fingers were swollen afterward, which alarmed me at first, but a little info from Dr. Internet tells me that it could be because of the salt on my eggs, because of the heat, or because I was holding my iPod in the same hand the whole time while not swinging my arms enough... basically my form today was terrible.

Lunch will be a smoothie (home made today, not smoothie king) with strawberries, blueberries, blackberries, yogurt and 2% milk. I'm looking into making smoothies with tofu for some protein, but today I'll probably just add some protein powder or maybe some of my bro-in-law's whey powder - depending on which is in the cabinet.

Last night's planned "whole grain pasta" spaghetti with ground bison in natural sauce wasn't bad at all... after I scrapped the nasty, coagulated glob of pasta goo and started over with another batch of good ol' semolina pasta... I'm pretty sure it was from a package that my grandmother sent us. She gets government cheese and other cheapo goodies and sends boxes of it to us. So basically, the pasta wasn't the best we could have done calorie wise, but I ran out of options when the whole grain pasta lost its mind. Whatever, things happen.

*PM*

My lunch smoothie was pretty friggin good. I ended up adding protein powder that I got when I worked at Curves. It made the smoothie a bit chalky, but it was good nonetheless.

Dinner: 4 chicken tacos on corn tortillas with lettuce, cheese, taco sauce and sour cream. I could have stopped after the 3rd one, but it was SO good! I'm working on portion control. It's just taking time.

I think I need to buy a scale. I need to be able to keep up with my weight. At the same time, I'm hesitant because I know me. I will weigh every day - possibly several times a day - and get frustrated when I don't see instant results. We'll see. I'd like to be able to discipline myself to only weigh weekly, but I don't know if I can do that...

Day 3

Well, I'm off to a good start. I got up when my alarm went off and, get this, ATE BREAKFAST!

Breakfast: 3 hard boiled eggs - whites only. (a whopping 51 calories)

Now for activity... It's only 74 degress so far, so I think I'll go for a walk in the park after I finish this huge glass of water.

*an hour later* - I went to the park... I didn't realize how long the track was! 2 miles. It doesn't seem like much, but when your knees crunch the whole way... I hope I paced myself well enough that I won't be seriously regretting it later.

*PM*

Lunch: Strawberry, Kiwi, Papaya juice, smoothie with protein powder. Sweetened with Turbinado and honey. The smoothie came from Smoothie King. I didn't realize that it was sweetened with turbinado until I looked it up later. Will opt for "skinny" next time.

Snack: colby jack cheese

Went shopping at Earth Fare. Got supplies for dinner: whole grain pasta, all natural spaghetti sauce, ground BISON!, fresh mushrooms, fresh italian bread.

Day 2

"Before" pictures...

yes, i have blacked out my face for a reason. and that reason is shame...

oh, geez... i have back boobs.

Oh, God. I didn't realize how bad it had gotten. It's amazing how different it is to look at a picture of oneself versus the image that one sees in the mirror each morning. I knew I had gotten pretty big, I was never in denial about that. But wow. No wonder my knees hurt.

Breakfast: nothing

Lunch: Strawberry, Kiwi, Papaya, protein smoothie

Dinner: TBA

Activity: none (yes, I know that this is bad, but my city is in the hottest summer I've ever experienced and I just can't bring myself to go out and die from heat exhaustion. Plus I have class tonight and would rather not shower again today.... oh the excuses that I can come up with)

I need to start eating breakfast. I don't have to for cereal, nor do I really care for it that much. Eggs would be good, but again there's the issue of taking the time to cook them... I could hard boil a few and keep them on standby. There's a thought.

p90x - I've been doing some research on the different variations of the p90x program. There's the crazy I-am-a-professional- athlete "Classic" version, the less intense (for wimps) "Lean" version, and the "Doubles" version which I am refusing to research because "double" means twice as much and when it comes to an already difficult workout regime, no thanks.

I have found the p90x DVDs and books online for less than $40. My sister says she might be willing to split the cost with me if she and her husband can us them too. So basically, if I order the DVDs, use them once, and then never touch them again, I'm only out $20... Aren't I just the optimist today?

So, the question is still "to p90x or not to p90x?"

As for foods... I think I will go to The Fresh Market tomorrow... Or maybe Earth Fare...

Day 1

Day 1. I have no idea what my weight is. I haven't weighed myself in about a month. At last weigh-in, I was 276 pounds. Today I have consumed:

Breakfast: nothing
Lunch: rice crispy treat
Early dinner: ENTIRE tombstone pizza with (light) Ranch dressing (notice how I try to validate myself by noting that the ranch dressing was "light"... this is a trend that I hope to stop ASAP)

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Daily Activity:

none. Does driving for 4 hours count? Probably not...

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Body:

My knees crunch. A lot. My back has hurt for 2 days now. Granted I have been sleeping in the spare bed at my parents' house, but still. At 24 years old, this is ridiculous.

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Plan:

To P90X or not to P90X? That is the current question. For now... baby steps. Tomorrow morning, I plan to wake up at a reasonable time, go for a walk, then make myself a smoothie for breakfast.

Intro

So... this blog is going an experiment. I have decided that it is time (ok, it is past time... WAY past time) to get myself together and take better care of my body.

I'm 24 years old, 5'10", and have been overweight for most of my life. I lost weight during high school, but that was mostly by starving the life out of myself. It's shocking to look back at journals that my 17-year-old self kept. Then I went to college... and the pounds started to accumulate. And accumulate they did. I've gained around 100 pounds since my starved self in high school. That's a person!!! I've gained a person!

Now I have made the decision... Operation Skinny Jeans commences now. Let's hope it lasts longer than a week...